Well,

I don't trust you anymore.
I feel like I've been punched every time I think about it.
I don't think I'll ever really have confidence in us anymore.
Half of me hates you and that sounds awful but I can't help it.
Half of me really misses you and just wants you to apologize one more time.
And the tiniest tiniest part wants t hurt you just as much as you hurt me.
Merry Christmas.